Fun Facts about Jorge! :D

Next time I'll just upload it. Lesson learned, don't use hotel wifi for live streaming.

I happen to have some spare time during my visit here in the Rio Grand Valley (RGV). For those of you that don't know the RGV is about 500 miles south of the Dallas Fort Worth area. Why I'm here I don't know for sure, but it differently has something to do with the bonds I've formed through my time here.

I tend not to form emotional attachments easily, so when they do I like to put a lot of time and energy into cultivating these them. It's something that rarely occurs, and its something that I've always questioned because it appeared as though everyone else could get a long just fine.

Even with the bonds I've formed its still hard for me to cipher thoughts and emotions towards individuals and ideas. That is why I invest a lot of myself into people and places, so that I can come to a conclusion and understand where I stand.

So why am I here? To support the arts, to support a friend. To take care of other on going endeavors and businesses. To make sure "my house" is in order before I can focus more external things and progress in life.

It feels as though the more I learn about the world, the more I don't know. The more busy I get the more time I have. The more structured things become the more chaos appears to ensure.

I say things things in all seriousness, but at the same time I always seem to find myself humorously waiting. Waiting for things to happen. I'm not a very patient person, but I often find myself having to exert patience in a lot of things. Like right now (3/30/18 10:03AM)

That's all I have for now. I have many minor errands to run before I leave tomorrow morning.

Ambition

O what a horrible miserable person I am. Is it so that I am an unhappy person? Even when more than enough is what I have I want more.

For what If all I want is to be at peace and happy? Perhaps it would be easier to try and make them believe that I am not what I am. At what cost now?

I have family and friends. Why is a good job not enough, nor place, or transport? For me to survive is to thrive, its possible I will never be satisfied.

A paradox perhaps because of these things, I see no real point in pursuing goals that will not make me more complete.

August Visit

As I sit here in the living room I used to call home my mind reflects on all the things I have done and need to do. I do not feel as uneasy as I did before, but the pain of departing remains.

My ambition is greater than my vision, but the Lord has revealed to me the end. It's a bit odd knowing where to go, but not knowing how to get there.

Because of this I feel a little isolated from the world in many ways. I've witnessed life both fleeting and never ending, and at once.

Moments that cost as much as decades, decades that feel like moments. Don't let your self get in the way of your self, do not surrender to a lie.

Anyway, God is good, Jesus is coming, and the Devil is... a liar. Good luck, have fun! This time traveler has a lot of work to do.