Never a better time to procrastinate!

I've been bouncing around the DFW since Nov 2017. Before then I had been traveling between here and the RGV. Ironically, I had more time to post here and upload for the vlog than I do now. I got a new job Feb 2018 and am living in Dallas now. 

The position is not film related, but it's definitely something I've been looking for since I moved up here two years ago. I consider this part of the harvest revealed to me in prayer at the turn of the year. Though we are in the final months of 2018 part of me believes there is still more to come.

 

God's Project now has a presence on Facebook. We're currently working on expanding to other outlets like YouTube and Instagram, but we haven't really had time to sit down and pull it all together. Before there were only two of us, but now we have more support. We recently finished a short film that we'll be submitting to festivals. Hopefully during this time we can fortify what we have.

 

I've spoken about this in the past but my stance remains firm. However the topic of a significant other has been reoccurring exponentially. So much so that it has prompted me to train my mind, body and soul. I do not know the day or hour when she will be revealed; all I have are traits of what she will be like. There is a prophecy that I have shared with a handful of people that briefly describes her appearance and personality, but outside of that it is a game of dating and courting.

On a final note, mental health issues are a real thing. I have been afflicted with them from time to time, but have been able to manage my symptoms. My suggestion to you is to try to use them to your advantage instead of viewing them as a handicap. It is not an easy feat, but know that it can be done.

I Don't Know About You, But I'm Not Feeling 22

I recently turned 25. Not much to say there. It seems as though every year has more exciting and more challenging. This past year was nothing like last year, nor as stagnant as years before. Prophetic, yes, it was filled with many victories great and small, but many fresh and new trials did await me.

The details are not ones I will relinquish because I have chosen to keep them a secret except to a select few. However, it can be said that the road I have traveled has been marked with blood, sweat, and tears. I met a lot of people and helped people when and where God called me to. I witnessed the hand of God in many wonderful things.

I recently turned 25, and I'm thinking about dwelling in the shadows of truth like I did before. About ten years ago I decided I would be more transparent with the world both inspire it and avoid misunderstandings with those around me. The more heavy and intimate facets were reserved for family and friends, but for the most part I shared my inner workings. Unfortunately only one of those two goals came into fruition.

By nature I am introverted, and it is only through personal development that I was able to lower inhibtions and reveal parts of me I wanted to keep secluded. In that personal experiment I have found that people only want to see what they want to see. People only want to know so much, and so I want to only tell so much. For years I tried to understand how the world worked in order to relate to it, but I have failed more times than I wanted and definitely more times than I succeeded. Yeah, I don't want to do this anymore unless I have to.

While I've been perfectly fine alone all this time, the interest and topic of entering a relationship has risen and fallen like the tide. However each time it returns more profoundly than the last. I haven't dated anyone in years, its not a real problem, but it is when you want to date. Given how things have worked so far, it might never happen no matter how much harder or smarter I try. 

So that's where I'm at at 25. Many things have been set in motion that I will see to the end, but will probably never pick up again. Things are falling into place, and I can only pray the desires of my heart are in line with what the Lord will provide. I might never understand this world, and that's okay. I might never enter into a relationship, but that's okay because not all of us are called to be married.

Its 2018, and from what I've heard its time to reap from the harvest of victories. I don't know about you, but I ain't wasting my time. At the end of the day, me and my house will serve the Lord on high.

2016: A Year of Transition

Oh my what a year 2016 was. Full of death, conflict, and horrific crimes against nature and humanity, or at least this is what the majority would believe two thousand sixteen brought in like a winter storm. In general, leap years tend to be the most difficult for me in terms of life obstacles. However, I personally did not find twenty sixteen too unbearable at all! In fact Spring 2016 heralded a season of Eternal Spring, a time of growth and healing, for me.

It was a year of transitions. I had quit a photography job early on and started free lancing in an attempt to attain more funds to pay bills, pay off loans, as well as provide fuel for my film endeavors. This worked for a few months, those of you that have seen the vlog know this. The time frames overlap, but for the most part that is how it was. I encountered a dry spell and had seemingly no other option but to move to North Texas. I have family here and a good friend of mine offered me a place to stay and a photography job for six weeks. Growth.

In that time period I drove back and forth between Grand Prairie and Waxahachie looking for a more stable job. I ended up finding it in Wax. The change in scenery and distance from distractions, though I find more negative than positive (not necessarily bad; I just miss home and everyone there), gave me space to recover and catch up mentally with all the things that had transpired throughout college. Healing.

I don’t understand why people reacted so sensitively to all the political things that occurred during this year. Celebrities and heroes die all the time. Wars and suffering have all been here since the beginning of time in one region or another. Seemingly terrible politicians manage to get elected, or chosen, all the flipping time! Not once before have I seen people take action before. Perhaps its because of the increasing integration of news and social media, but even then I don’t think this spark caught fire until the headlines and articles became click bait and “fake”, misleading factions of the public astray.

I personally didn’t experience a taste of death, but those around me did, and that was enough to call it a rough year. International affairs always made themselves known to me from a young age for some reason, so some of the hell we witnessed I had already anticipated clenching my teeth. Aside from watching local administrations do wonderfully stupid things and cause alarm due to bad judgment calls (I mean this in general and not in any defamatorious way. We’re all human and make mistakes, all is forgiven), 2016 was great. :D

I was supposed to graduate this year, as I was supposed to graduate last year, but that did not get accomplished, and whether or not I graduate this year (2017, lol) my actions leading up to the pass or fail event will be a victory. Why? Because 2017 is the Year of Victory. The things that I am going to do to get things done need to be strong and high rewarding decisions. In this Season of Eternal Spring, I need to build everything I have on “the rock”. Every effort I put forth into this world needs to pay me back completely in the long run in some way, shape, or form.

Undeniably, victories come with consequences. A year of victory does not mean a year of wealth or happiness, that comes later if it does, but merely (in the greatest sense) a year of fulfillment and productivity. This might sound odd coming from one of my generation, but I care not or happiness if the will of the Lord is finished and the land has been tilled with seeds planted. That alone is more than enough.